Tea of 2023 | Hot Mess with Alix Earle

…going to go month by month and I'm going to give you the full behind the scenes scoop I'm like a little scared for what I'm about to say in this episode I'm really hoping I don't creat…proper use

…ss in every single one of them I'm so grateful for everything that has happened this year like I can't even begin to explain like my dreams beyond my dreams have come true and with tha…filler · filler

…so grateful for everything that has happened this year like I can't even begin to explain like my dreams beyond my dreams have come true and with that has come a lot of stories a lot o…filler · filler

…true and with that has come a lot of stories a lot of speculations and everyone's told me like you know it's better to just stay silent shut your mouth like not say anything and that's…quotative · filler

…ions and everyone's told me like you know it's better to just stay silent shut your mouth like not say anything and that's what I've done all year I have been quiet as a mouse I have n…filler · filler

…ing up I think we just have to get right into it I think we just have to start I'm really like oh god I've been procrastinating this all day okay here we go so I'm going to take you ba…quotative · filler

…er relationship and this relationship only lasted about 3 months because it went downhill like just super super fast like I mean it was like kind of good and then I mean wheels off the…filler · filler

…ted about 3 months because it went downhill like just super super fast like I mean it was like kind of good and then I mean wheels off the train like total mess and we ended up breakin…filler · filler

…lationship only lasted about 3 months because it went downhill like just super super fast like I mean it was like kind of good and then I mean wheels off the train like total mess and …filler · filler

…uper super fast like I mean it was like kind of good and then I mean wheels off the train like total mess and we ended up breaking up in beginning of December of last year but it wasn'…filler · filler

…up breaking up in beginning of December of last year but it wasn't really a clean breakup like we were kind of going back and forth for a while so the reason I want to bring this up is…filler · filler

…never really talked about it online before at this time people started to get a hint that like we weren't together he wasn't really at my birthday party and I was like you know what I'…filler · filler

… get a hint that like we weren't together he wasn't really at my birthday party and I was like you know what I'm just going to go on live like I normally do and of course everyone on t…quotative · filler

…n't really at my birthday party and I was like you know what I'm just going to go on live like I normally do and of course everyone on this live stream is asking me like did you and ba…proper use

… to go on live like I normally do and of course everyone on this live stream is asking me like did you and baseball boy break up did you and baseball boy break up so I was like yeah li…quotative · filler

…king me like did you and baseball boy break up did you and baseball boy break up so I was like yeah like we broke up and I just start shitalking the relationship and basically I'm like…quotative · filler

…ke did you and baseball boy break up did you and baseball boy break up so I was like yeah like we broke up and I just start shitalking the relationship and basically I'm like yeah he w…filler · filler

…like yeah like we broke up and I just start shitalking the relationship and basically I'm like yeah he wouldn't post me he turned evil like it was this whole mess the moment that I got…quotative · filler

…hitalking the relationship and basically I'm like yeah he wouldn't post me he turned evil like it was this whole mess the moment that I got off that live stream my life had flashed bef…filler · filler

…illion or two million followers at this time and I got those followers within the span of like a month so I didn't really know like what that meant or how many people were actually lis…hedge · filler

…is time and I got those followers within the span of like a month so I didn't really know like what that meant or how many people were actually listening to what I had to say that's so…filler · filler

…e actually listening to what I had to say that's something I still kind of deal with it's like almost impostor syndrome sense because I'm like there's just no way that many people actu…hedge · filler

… something I still kind of deal with it's like almost impostor syndrome sense because I'm like there's just no way that many people actually like care to hear what I say and maybe they…quotative · filler

…st impostor syndrome sense because I'm like there's just no way that many people actually like care to hear what I say and maybe they don't but they cared when it was about the drama a…filler · filler

…this live stream on my Tik Tok I'm scrolling one after the other I don't even know I feel like I felt all the blood drain from my face this was probably the first time I hadn't posted …proper use

…elt all the blood drain from my face this was probably the first time I hadn't posted for like 2 days like I went into hiding into shelter I'm calling all my friends I had no idea that…hedge · filler

…blood drain from my face this was probably the first time I hadn't posted for like 2 days like I went into hiding into shelter I'm calling all my friends I had no idea that people woul…filler · filler

…ing in my bed I'm locked my door I'm calling my friends I was commenting on every Tik Tok like please take this down please delete this because I was just so embarrassed that this info…quotative · filler

… I was just so embarrassed that this information had gotten out in a way that like I felt like I was just like casually talking to my friends on FaceTime like I would go on live stream…proper use

…this because I was just so embarrassed that this information had gotten out in a way that like I felt like I was just like casually talking to my friends on FaceTime like I would go on…filler · filler

…mbarrassed that this information had gotten out in a way that like I felt like I was just like casually talking to my friends on FaceTime like I would go on live streams all the time b…filler · filler

…in a way that like I felt like I was just like casually talking to my friends on FaceTime like I would go on live streams all the time because I don't know I just I loved them I like i…filler · filler

…e like I would go on live streams all the time because I don't know I just I loved them I like interacting with everyone in the audience and I was like what did I just do not only is i…proper use

…don't know I just I loved them I like interacting with everyone in the audience and I was like what did I just do not only is it all over Tik Tok but the Press starts to pick it up and…quotative · filler

… Press starts to pick it up and Christmas morning they literally announce on ESPN they're like the only thing bigger than Santa Claus this week is Alex Earl did you hear she broke up w…quotative · filler

… we'll get to that in a minute but I that that's been the narrative ever since then I was like I don't even want to speak on it anymore I don't want to see this ever again I shut my mo…quotative · filler

…ut my mouth I just wanted it to go away so so badly that was definitely my first taste of like oh like what I say can be like picked up and actually has like meaning like I can't just …filler · filler

…uth I just wanted it to go away so so badly that was definitely my first taste of like oh like what I say can be like picked up and actually has like meaning like I can't just like spe…filler · filler

… go away so so badly that was definitely my first taste of like oh like what I say can be like picked up and actually has like meaning like I can't just like speak as freely as maybe I…filler · filler

…finitely my first taste of like oh like what I say can be like picked up and actually has like meaning like I can't just like speak as freely as maybe I did anymore because now people …filler · filler

…irst taste of like oh like what I say can be like picked up and actually has like meaning like I can't just like speak as freely as maybe I did anymore because now people seem to care …filler · filler

… oh like what I say can be like picked up and actually has like meaning like I can't just like speak as freely as maybe I did anymore because now people seem to care oh God it it it wa…filler · filler

… now people seem to care oh God it it it was not good at all I was really really down bad like there's no way to describe I don't think like the first time where you are seeing yoursel…filler · filler

…ot good at all I was really really down bad like there's no way to describe I don't think like the first time where you are seeing yourself on social media in a way that people are lik…filler · filler

…ike the first time where you are seeing yourself on social media in a way that people are like talking about you I like we do it all the time right like we see something about you know…filler · filler

…you are seeing yourself on social media in a way that people are like talking about you I like we do it all the time right like we see something about you know Selena Gomez and everyon…filler · filler

… media in a way that people are like talking about you I like we do it all the time right like we see something about you know Selena Gomez and everyone's talking about it but it's lik…filler · filler

…ike we see something about you know Selena Gomez and everyone's talking about it but it's like it's such a weird feeling to be on the other end of that when everyone's talking about yo…filler · filler

…ch a weird feeling to be on the other end of that when everyone's talking about you as if like you can't see it or it's just like you're now in this position where people are allowed t…filler · filler

…er end of that when everyone's talking about you as if like you can't see it or it's just like you're now in this position where people are allowed to have an opinion about anything yo…filler · filler

…this position where people are allowed to have an opinion about anything you're doing and like being on the other end of that is so weird and like people picking apart literally every …filler · filler

…inion about anything you're doing and like being on the other end of that is so weird and like people picking apart literally every single thing you say everything you're doing like I …filler · filler

…nd like people picking apart literally every single thing you say everything you're doing like I was not okay I was mentally spiraling I was like you know what actually this is not for…filler · filler

… thing you say everything you're doing like I was not okay I was mentally spiraling I was like you know what actually this is not for me I don't want to do this I then went to my docto…quotative · filler

…cribes me my anxiety medicine that week because it was literally Christmas week and I was like you need to get me in like I need to up my dosage like this is not okay like I went in fe…quotative · filler

…ne that week because it was literally Christmas week and I was like you need to get me in like I need to up my dosage like this is not okay like I went in feeling so ill and sick from …filler · filler

…ek and I was like you need to get me in like I need to up my dosage like this is not okay like I went in feeling so ill and sick from what I had said on this live stream and honestly i…filler · filler

…literally Christmas week and I was like you need to get me in like I need to up my dosage like this is not okay like I went in feeling so ill and sick from what I had said on this live…filler · filler

…d sick from what I had said on this live stream and honestly it wasn't even like that bad like I could have said a lot more honestly about baseball boy because he was actually the wors…filler · filler

…ling so ill and sick from what I had said on this live stream and honestly it wasn't even like that bad like I could have said a lot more honestly about baseball boy because he was act…filler · filler